The “After” Myth

This is an amazing transformation with an amazing realization. When I lost 90lbs to get down to my high school weight, I was thrilled. But I was miserable. Now that all of those pounds have come back and my life is balanced and I am truly, blissfully happy…. am I less of a person?

Being overweight again has diluted my joy of being engaged. It has plagued me every time I look in the mirror. But I remember that when I was 130 pounds…. I was miserable. I was self-destructive. I was not who I am. I didn’t love myself more. In fact, I did things that intentionally hurt myself both physically and emotionally.

Remember that who you are is not a number on the scale. Strive to live a healthy life. Push for self-love, not some arbitrary size. Be yourself. Love yourself. Rediscover and redefine your idea of sexy. This woman is an inspiration to me and this post should be shared. Bravo!

Can Anybody Hear Me?

DURING

After.

It’s here.

In my first post, Before, 3 years ago, I said “I’m not to After yet, but I’m closer to After than to Before.”

I now weigh 117 – 120 pounds (depending on the day), and standing at 5-foot 6-inches, that measurement means that After is very, very here. But, before you congratulate me, dear readers…if I have any…and dear friends and family who I know follow this blog… I have to come clean with you: I don’t feel like I’m at After. I’m terrified of being at After. And, I don’t like that After is here.

After5 2

The tagline of my blog is “uncovering myself one pound at a time.” For most of this blog, I’ve spoken strongly about how my relationship with food and myself was what caused my weight struggles. I stand by that. The thing is, the symptoms have resolved faster than I’ve been able to…

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About mdydyn

Writer, Blogger, Delusional Optimist.
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One Response to The “After” Myth

  1. melissadamon says:

    I’d take happy over miserable any day of the week. ^_^ Keep being happy!

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